day two

[saltbreeze]

INVESTMENT ACCOUNT OPEN AND CHEMISTRY LAB DONE !
i also have to schedule two retakes for math test s uuu but i feel okay ! i can do it ... will schedule tomorrow
just glad i got the test corrections done in the first place honestly
reading up on stocks .. passive investment look into s&p 500 whatavaaaaaa
stocks are fucking expeensnvienvee what tha helllll
this it what it means to be on the same level as everybody else i suppose ...
but i have a good feeling about this .... i won't be like my bum brotherobsessed with losiing money on
sports parlays and my bum father putting money into a dead agricultural third world economy and 
always hoppign and skipping to the casino !

hmmm anyways
i should probably do a few practice problems for the quarter retake 
tomorrow morning ... + get kamola to teach me how to rotate shapes tomorrow during tutoring
i'm pretty hard headed .. she drills one math concept into me like intergers and then i forget two plus two is four . really happened !
well one of them was negative and we were multiplying so it tripped me up .... what can i doooo ?! i'm low iq
honestly i've just remembered that i actually am a very quick reader and i need to abuse that ...
MORE MORE BOOKS ! MORE MORE READING !

i don't think i can ever have a healthy relationship with weed . it's either dependent or straight edge ....
it's really okay though . shit kills you and makes you dumb anyways—there's never any winning with drugs allison ...
honestly my weird coughing fits have made me paranoiiiisddd about vaping or whatever regardless

need to buy more kinky curly gel + leave in still ...
and ummm chicken ..... and maybe like /.... no idea . a container to pack a lunch in ?
counting calories went bad today . not discouraged though . will just try again tomorrow

i also spent a lot of money today ... that DOES discourage me ... but all i can do is work and wait 
so i cannot lose sight of my goals

applied to this weird student commitee thing cause the guy that runs it said he wanted me on it one time
might as well try , right ? what's the worst that could happen ? they reject me ?! no way !!

plowed through to genesis 4 yesterday and i'm about like ... almost done with my novel . kindle says only an hour and thirteen
minutes of reading to finish it .. pretty proud of myself ! no idea what i'll read next .. something a little more poetic in word
choice ... and something short ! not poetry though ... i read a lot of that before i got super depressed so i'm taking a little
breather from that ... prose is callling me ...

watching west side story (1961) ... i am quite sleepy so i may have to finish it tomorrow afternoon ... but i do like it !!!
honestly no idea why this is one of the few movies that i actually paid attention to . might be the fact that
i deleted social media and i've just felt better lately