thoings

 finally set up a kanban board . need to get PRODUCTIVA !
Going fin e... reading some donmquiu
books r easy but also i feel very alone . everyoone that matters to me is out of town .
i fee l very alone . i alwayus have . and thereñs not much i{ll say besifes that 
ummmmm whatyever playing lfie is strrange and itñs making me upest

I HATE HATE HATE GEOMETRY . EVEN THE BASICS . HAVE TO GET OVER THIS FOR STANDARDIZED TEST PREP
mom is making me be her sercratary rand i want to die i hate secretary work it is so meaningless and easy and devoid of nay happiness
andx yet i;m really good at it
i don;y have anything to say to anyone anymore
no one in my life really thinks similarly to me adn i feel a little lost , ]
you can tell i;m a very happy girl
whatever just gotta keep on going
do your fucking laundry

i had a big paragraph about some terrible depressive thought spiral i keep on finding myself in . not very gppd to get stuck in those and i can;t tell anyone what i need or want anyway because i think it's dumb and if i can stay alive i don't really think i need any of the fufillment shit . i can be unhappy with everything as long as i have a fukll belly and a home . 

trying to pray each night . it's goign fine . no it's so not . it's late and i;m scared and i feel a bir alone in the same way i feel alone everywhere i go . even honduras . bruises on the knees . reminds me of the stupid kneel on rice punishment. the things i get out of love : warm fuzzy feelings  and i don;t feel like sharing the rest of this completed thought even though i thought it was f un is because people anever understand anyone . and especially not me.e and since we started mentioning love i decided it would be. agood time to REALLY get to my point .  i love love and it; s so amazinf . i lofe love . i love loving i love lovee and love is great . Glad we could clear that up officer

what is the point of trying to get my thoughts out anywhere on an electronic device. this is so dumb . i own sixteen notebooks . thank uo officer sorryh

dowloaded tiktok and it made me cry gfor about four hours . or it mgiht be the whole bruised knees realization . to the journal 1 ! beuy