Rhoda, on the other hand, feels negated by the others around her and longs to disappear

[saltbreeze]

ummm
decided i'll shut up . i'm too unhappy with myself
and everyone is unhappy with me too .
my self hatred doesn't do much except
for leave me in a state of rigor mortis ..
stiff , cold , and unable to take any action in life
messed up the color of my hair today
saw my grandmother and my deaf friend
they kept me company when i was losing my mind
last time i was in honduras ..
i have a serious issue with bicycles
everytime i try to learn how to ride one i always just
end up panicking
i'm so embarrassing . she probably thinks the same !
i've been crying all day today .
i wish i could either :
go home
or have a little pet
or an ice cream cone .
i want to go home the most